So umm yeah I'm posting lol

Last year a friend of mine encouraged me to start blogging. Well I did it for a day or two and then yeah...as you can see I never really kept up with it!

But tonight I decided that I should try it out again.

Since last May, I moved from NC to GA for grad school. Before that I was in NYC tryin to live the life up there but quickly realized that "tha life" was all a facade. You need *MUCHO* deniro to live "tha life" but most of all FRIENDS you can't do it all alone... so I left, got my butt into grad school and here I am.

The real reason why I'm here tonight is b/c I've been thinking a lot lately...A LOT about me being happy and me doing what I WANT to DO...and thinking about the next step when it comes to my personal life. There are so many thoughts running through my mind and right now I'm just rambling not really saying much...

But basically it's this
1) I'm kinda scared. Scared that I might be wasting my time here in GA not pursuing my true passion, I'm so far away from my family and friends! Don't get me wrong, I love to help people and public health is right up my alley but being in the middle of GA away from friends is starting to get to me!! I also know that I can use this degree as back up but right now my heart, my mind, my soul is not in tune with this right now...


2) I'm scared about personal relationships. I've only had 1 serious relationship which lasted 8 months and a serious crush on a guy which lasted a couple months too. I'm not well-versed on the relationship tip and I've pretty much been single for as long as I can remember. I'm really into this guy but he's in a diff state :-( honestly I don't know how to act around him b/c he's just so cool and makes me feel special :-) I don't know what will come of it or if anything can come from it :-/. Not knowing where things are going also makes me nervous but I learned one thing...never pressure ANYONE.

3) I've realized some things about me that I need to work on. It's kinda hard when you know your the shiz and realize that a certain quality about you is so not shiz lol but i'm growing.

So that's everything right now. Plus the Golden Girls is on :-) gotta watch my fav show. But anyway I'll share this song that got me thru today.